Sunday, March 19, 2017

goodbye, spring break

Exhibit A. The civilized and social media-appropriate version of me on Spring Break.

I began this week in the hopes that everything would go to plan.
I would accomplish much, and feel inspired. I would write and write and write, and run and run and run, and never feel tired or need to take a breather. 
But God answered my prayer for rest, and instead I found myself sick for my entire Spring Break. There has been a lot of coughing, many bowls of soup, and a not too pleasant attitude on my part. 

Exhibit B. The actual sickness-ridden and crazy hermit version of me
whilst cleaning my room on Spring Break. AM I HUMAN

Yet, there was also grace. Grace and patience from God to hold me even when I kicked and fought His loving arms. He showed me (and is showing me still) what it means to be flexible, to trust, and to rest. This week may not have been a week of picture-perfect sunsets, workouts, and plans, but a week of "perfect" was not what I needed. 

Instead, not only did I need the Lord to hold me, 
but I needed to learn just how much I need to be held. 

Goodbye, Spring Break. You have taught me just how important it is to have an attitude of joy in the present, not just in retrospect. When I look back on this week, I will remember standing in a best friend's wedding, eating fudge-filled brownies and ice cream, my father writing his short story in the garage, finally finishing Pride and Prejudice, and the warm Florida sunshine. 

+ How has your week been? What has you currently in awe of the Lord? 
And do you ever feel like a hermit?

Thursday, March 16, 2017

is this living free

For the longest time, I thought that even though I had put my trust in Christ, the Lord was looking down on me for all of the things I did (or didn't do) on a daily basis. Over time, this pattern of thinking grew into a belief, and soon I felt perpetually guilty before the Lord, and so condemned.

This, of course, is so far from the truth.

"Then you will know the truth, 
and the truth will set you free." 
~ John 8:32

I don't know if anyone else has struggled with this mindset before, but if so, I want you to know it is a complete lie. Once you are in Christ, you can enjoy peace and security and safe pasture with Jesus. Believing that the Lord looks down on you robs you of the intimacy you could have with Him and actually gives the devil the victory. There is no condemnation here. 

"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death." 
~ Romans 8:1-2

Fixing a mindset such as mine takes time, but it starts with taking God at His Word. Yes, Lord, I want to BELIEVE that what You say is truer than true, and hide it so deep within my heart that I cannot help but overflow with healthy thoughts. What You say is true. If what I think and feel do not line up with You, then it is You to whom I must listen. 

"But now He has reconciled you by Christ's physical body through death to present you holy in His sight, without blemish and free from accusation, if you continue in your faith, established and firm, not moved from the hope held out in the gospel." 
~ Colossians 1:22-23a

Above all, know that God is crazy in love with you. He created you, and knows your weaknesses and died so that you may live in a free, delightful relationship with Him.

"For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him." 
~ John 3:17

+ What helps you to run to truth? How do you embrace freedom on a daily basis? And, pray tell, what is your favorite twenty one pilots song? 

Monday, March 13, 2017

be still & rest

I've come to realize that I'm not very good at resting.

Spring Break may be here in all of its peace-giving glory, but I still have a list ready to go of tasks that I'd like to accomplish, projects I'd like to start, and goals I'd like to reach. In the pursuit of much, I find myself unable to keep up with my high standards. And if I'm honest, I find myself too often absorbed in feelings of anxiety, my mind racing with thoughts of guilt.

Lord, teach me to rest. 

"The Lord will fight for you; 
you need only to be still."
~ Exodus 14:14

This week, I pray that I would step away from the mental battle and pick up the Word instead. I forget how easy it is to believe, how simple it can be to trust. And we were meant to live FREE, even if that feels unnatural sometimes. 

Jesus, carry me. Help me to have a child's faith. I thirst for a relationship with You that is real, just Father and child sharing life together.

+ Happy Spring Break, y'all! Is anyone else on vacation this week?
P.S. I am about to embark on a massive blog-reading session. WOOT WOOT
P.S.S. I am actually taking my own blog photos now #whatup. 
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